Monday, April 21, 2008

I will not....

I will not talk badly about the adoption process in Haiti.
I will not speak of how slow it is to bring my son home.
I will not dwell on the lack of money we have for the adoption.
I will not say negative things about this process.

I will not, because I don't want it to be. I understand, that if I stop saying or thinking negative things, that it may or may not change, but instead, I will change. I will grow the way I believe I am supposed to. I will learn to love and embrace this time. This adoption is an awesome process, and I will embrace that. I will learn what I am to learn. I cannot and will not change how the process will unfold for us, but I can pray, and completely rely on the Lord. God wants total trust out of me. He has this. His plan will be carried out, and I trust this. I will lean not on my own understanding, but instead on his.

11 comments:

lizzie said...

I LOVE THIS POST!! -these things i think all of us know, but for some reason have not said or lived out. thank you!

Jodi Renshaw said...

Karma is everything. Believe all good things will flow ... and they most certainly will :) What we give our attention to - grows. So, if we focus on the beauty of our processes - the beauty will unfold in grand abundance. However, if we focus on the nehgative, that is all we will see as well. So, kuddos to you sweetie, for focusing on the beauty ... and giving it up to God.

Lots of Love,
Jodi

Tim & Sarah said...

Thank you so much Jodi and Lizzie for such sweet responses!

you-you said...

wow! stand strong, friend! it's tough, but the Lord chose you!! He has a great plan!

Greg's Wife said...

I appreciate where you're coming from, but I can't quite relate, as I'm not there yet. ;) Perhaps, by His grace, I will one day arrive.

I believe the trials and pains of this process are very great at times, and personally, I NEED people to pray for me and help me bear the burden now and then. It's not that I seek to be negative and pessimistic, for I do make a tremendous effort to focus on the good, but I would be acting if I spoke only positive & sweet things with regard to Haitian adoption. Yes, it is BLESSED, but it is also difficult. Most days are pretty good, but every now and then I'll see a couple of boys that look like ours at the grocery store... and that can be hard. I have written a few "I'm going to LOVE this process from here on out" blog posts, but I never publish them, because I know how weak I am and how likely it is that no matter how strong I'm feeling today tomorrow may bring me to my knees.

I so admire your strength, faith and determination to look at the bright side of things. As I've only been a Christian for about 6 1/2 years it is exciting to me to see the sweet contentment the future holds for those who've been in the faith longer. (or are just stronger to begin with, as I don't know your story) I wish I could speed up my sanctification process as much as I wish I could speed up our adoption! I look forward to the day when I can lay down such big things before the Lord and not pick them up again! Thank you for the encouragement, sister!

Colleen said...

Great post, Sarah! Keep plugging along looking at the bright side of it all. :)

Blessings!

Kathy said...

Hmmm. There are days I want to scream, cry or throw things. Especially after being in ibesr 8 months and still counting. So hard to go somewhere special (zoo, park etc) and be dying a little inside wishing the twins could share it.

Kathy Eden said...

Awesome post Sarah! I'm so glad you're at that place!

stephanie garcia said...

Thank you for this encouragement! As we wait and occasionally stall in this process to bring home our babies from Haiti, it is so important to remember ... GOD bless.

Kristina said...

Bravo Sara!!!!

Brandy said...

That was awesome!!! Praying for your adoption!!!