Ephesians

For those who don't or can't understand why I wont speak ill of our adoption process, I thought I would explain. In the bible, Ephesians 4:29-30 is says:

Ephesians 4:29-30 (New International Version)


29: Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30: And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.


I feel that to have negative talk, could bring others down, or cause grief for the people of Haiti. I want others to be built up according to the Lord's will.

I pray that this post would speak to each and every reader that visits. Thank you to Nikki's father for his wisdom with this topic!

I AM...

Thanks for asking Colleen!

i am: so thankful for the life given to me.
i think: way to much at times!
i know: a lot about nothing.
i want: to model someday, even if it's for something crazy, like.... fish food!
i have: a wonderful husband, who would give me everything, if everything didn't cost so much!
i wish: I would have followed my dreams a bit more, like becoming a doctor, or a model.
i hate: waiting, insects, snakes veggies, dirt, clutter and to many conversations at once.
i miss: college and my grandmother.
i fear: my children will be kidnapped!
i feel: very nervous about flying!
i hear: lots of things (i shouldn't) come out of the mouths of students I work with.
i smell: really well!
i crave: junk food all the time!
i search: the Internet for everything!
i wonder: what the future holds for me and my family.
i regret: lots....
i love: (this is hard, because I love lots)
i ache: when I work out.
i care: about people who have less than we have been given.
i always: think about how abundantly I have been blessed.
i am not: out going in person. I take a while to feel comfortable in a crowd.
i believe: that Jesus died for me, for my sin's, so that I can go to heaven!
i dance: after I have had a couple of drinks!
i sing: with a really awful voice, but loudly in the car when no ones around.
i cry: only at really sad things. I hold in a lot.
i don’t always: express what I want. Again, I hold in a lot.
i fight: for what I believe in.
i write: on my blog, at work, and when I pay bills.
i never: eat salad!

i listen: to others problems, so that mine don't seem so bad!
i can usually be found: cleaning my house when my husbands gone, or on the computer if my husband is home.
i need: positive reinforcement frequently.
i am happy about: a lot!


how about you, Nikki, Kristina, Angela, YouYou and Kathy Eden

I will not....

I will not talk badly about the adoption process in Haiti.
I will not speak of how slow it is to bring my son home.
I will not dwell on the lack of money we have for the adoption.
I will not say negative things about this process.

I will not, because I don't want it to be. I understand, that if I stop saying or thinking negative things, that it may or may not change, but instead, I will change. I will grow the way I believe I am supposed to. I will learn to love and embrace this time. This adoption is an awesome process, and I will embrace that. I will learn what I am to learn. I cannot and will not change how the process will unfold for us, but I can pray, and completely rely on the Lord. God wants total trust out of me. He has this. His plan will be carried out, and I trust this. I will lean not on my own understanding, but instead on his.

Still hanging onto IBESR

It has now been about a month or so since I received our IBESR number. Yesterday, actually made the one month mark. I will have to say, that the time has gone by surprisingly fast. It still feels so fresh, the number, and news, but actually a month has already gone by!

We are still working on gathering the money needed to pay the last legal fee, but I am not worried at all! I have been called to do some PRN work tomorrow, and hope to do more once school is out.

It is amazing the peace I feel right now. Do I want him home..... WITH OUT A DOUBT. Do I miss him...Absolutely!!! Do I want the wait to end, you bet. I know that there is a reason for each and every day that I have to wait, and miss him. I will wait, knowing the the Lord has something planned, something that is his perfect plan.

Once again, thank you to all who are praying for us and encouraging us. We truly appreciate you!

Best Friends

For as far back as I can remember, my girls have always been like best friends. Yes, they argue, fight, and get on each others nerves, but there is a bond with my children that cannot be broke. I think this is the one aspect of our family dynamics that I love.
You can just see the light in Audrey's eyes regarding her new sister. This photo displays exactly how they are today. Audrey is always smiling, and excited, where Emily just goes with the flow, and takes it all in . I would have to say that these two are wonderful together. Their world revolves around each other.

On a happier note....

First, let me say, that I am not trying to dismiss the trouble in Haiti. I just get so consumed with the troubles elsewhere, that it really starts to affect my mood, happiness, and faith. I have to think happy thoughts now, because I feel myself getting more and more depressed with what is going on in Haiti. I will continue to pray, will continue to think about it, but for just a moment, I need to Praise God! We are now only about $1400 away from having our last fee paid!!! This is so huge to me, a total blessing. God has been so good to us, and we are so very thankful of his blessing. So with that, I just want to share a Praise! :0)

Riots in Haiti?

I have heard reports of this! Please Pray for all in Haiti right now!! Please pray for the UN officers, Haitian Police, and Innocent children. There are many others who are also in need of prayer, the government officials, and those rioting. Please pray for this to all be resolved very soon! I have not mentioned all that need to have prayer, but I am sure you can guess that the whole country could use some uplifting...
UPDATE: I found this video, check it out...
http://www.reuters.com/news/video?videoId=79640&feedType=VideoRSS&feedName=TopNews
I also have a CNN news report, you can find it here....
http://edition.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/americas/04/08/haiti.food.riots/

My boy this month

This is Isaiah just a couple of days ago. He is totally loosing his baby look. His face is really starting to thin. I cannot wait to see him again!! His is such a blessing to our family.
I came home today from work, and Tim had moved a dresser into his room, hung curtains, and organized a ton of things for him. It is so sweet to see my husband do this. He got Audrey's room ready too! He is a really great dad.
*note that these pictures are a curtsy of Sandy at 3A'S. Thanks Sandy for capturing this for me!