rough day

I am having the roughest day yet!! I hate this. I hate waiting. I know that we officially haven't started the adoption process yet, but in my heart, mind, and soul we have. We have a son waiting on us. I hate it, because we haven't sold our home yet, I don't know how this will affect our adoption paperwork, if we have a home study completed and then move. I don't have the full amount of money yet, I am nervous, worried, stressed, etc. You get the point I'm sure. Why is this all coming out now you ask? Well, our home was showed a few days ago, and then again last night, to the same person who saw it earlier in the week. This person bought the house right across the street that has only been for sale for about a week. I know I don't have a right to complain, I have been blessed so greatly already, and I shouldn't or should I say don't have the right to rush God in his ultimate plan. I know that this home will sell when the Lord wants it to sell. I trust that God will make this home sell before August when we plan on getting our home study. I have to trust that, because by the second week of July we will have a thousand dollars for this adoption. God has provided about 950 dollars already, and we have only been in this for a couple of weeks. I am blessed, and I need to hold onto the promise that God has given. I am not patient, and I should be, I don't have the right not to be. I am so sorry to unload on all of you. I will post again real soon, so that people don't have to continue to read my sob story. Its rude, and I am sorry:( Love always, Sarah