Sunday, June 22, 2008

its so hard...



It is so hard this time. When you get pregnant, you generally have a baby in 9 months, when we adopted the first 2 times, we had babies in just a few months each time, this time is a killer.

I ache to bring my son home. I try my very best to stay positive, to know that he is coming home, to say God will finish what he started, but its hard. With recent news of our age being a problem, my spirit is really heavy with worry. I know that I am not supposed to worry, but I really feel that at times it's my middle name. We are trying like crazy to come up with the rest of his fee's, and possibly a trip for Tim to visit again, but that at times feels miles away. I long to get his room together, to buy clothes, to visit again, to bring him home, to have 5 children living in our home.

So with this, I ask:

Please pray for my heart not to worry, to completely and totally know and believe that God is in control. For us to raise enough money to pay the rest of the fees, a trip for Tim, and final money to go pick him up, which we estimate to be about $3000. For somehow, someway to be able to start on creating his room, for our file to exit IBESR, for our file to fly through the rest of the process, and finally, for the other files stuck like ours. It would be really hard to know that we got approval when friends have not. I am at a stage of UGG, and I am really trying, but could use some extra prayer. Tim and I are both working like crazy to make sure we have the money when we need it, and I almost think we are working to hard. Tim works 2 jobs, his regular fire dept job, and part time at the YMCA, I have picked up PRN at a nursing home this summer since school is out, and recently committed to teaching summer school sessions for a group of preschoolers. Please pray for strength. Thank you all my dear blog readers, I don't know what I would do with out you all!

11 comments:

Kathy Eden said...

I think all of us going through times like that Sarah. I am lifting up all of your concerns in prayer. Please feel free to call me or stop by if you need to talk.

Lara said...

I'm praying Sarah...

Chad Becker said...

We are praying for you guys too. Thanks for your encouragement!

Kathy said...

I hope you will be out of ibesr soon. I'm afraid it's many more months after that until they come home. It didn't use to be that way but they've added a bunch of steps.

Salzwedel Family said...

It's hard when worry starts to creep in. I go through periods of worry & periods of contentment. I think that's normal. We just have to keep looking to the Lord who knows the plans He has for us.

Praying for you. Blessings...
Stephanie

jamie said...

I know it's hard.
Praying with you!

Jodi Renshaw said...

Thinking of you guys and sending you prayers for your son to come home asap. Much Love, Jodi

livingpurereligion said...

I know. It is SO hard. So So So So hard. I'm praying and believing that one day, in the not too distant future, sweet Isaiah Daniel will be living it up in E-ville with the rest of the Three Angels crew:)

mark.andrew.olson1@us.army.mil said...

Prayers from Iraq and sympathy of missing little ones you long to hold. I love you guys and am praying for you.

Greg's Wife said...

Hey Sarah, How did I miss this post? It was bittersweet for me to exit IBESR knowing you guys should have been out also. I pray every day that you will not be far behind. And with all the huge variables in Parquet, MOI, etc... we could still end up bringing our children home at the same time. Heck, you could even beat us! I am praying all the time for you guys and others who seem to be stuck there for no good reason. I know the Lord has a glorious plan here, but when you're in the throes of missing your child it can be hard to understand that. I can't even begin to imagine how easy & wonderful it would be to have a normal pregnancy with a happy ending or to complete an adoption in just a few months! Wow! I am glad He blessed you with such ease in having your first four children. I am trusting Him to complete this adoption beautifully as well, and how I pray that means a speeding up of the long process! Rejoice. He is at work!

Greg's Wife said...

PS- It does sound like you guys are working too hard. I encourage you to relax and trust in His provision. His yoke is easy & His burden is light. The money will come right when you need it!